A quick thought....(well, in my world of never ending words and thoughts....)
Twice in my life, I have had what I consider "good" break-ups. Really great relationships, wonderful people. But at the end of the day, the relationship just wasn't long-term material. Something we both realized, and both accepted as it was. Yet, even in knowing that, there were plenty of tears on both sides as well as a difficult period of adjustment for both of us as well.
I suppose it's more about irony than anything else. A "good break-up." Really, a bit of a contradiction. Yes, there are "bad" break-ups filled with anger and vengeance. Which is why we have the ability to claim "good" once in a while. They're good in that they don't result in two people hating one another or trying to get even. No grudges or confusion as to "was it me?" or "what could I have done differently?". Yet, still not good in that more time has passed with the wrong person (though....not necessarily wasted time, something is always gained as we grow). Bad in the sadness and loneliness of losing someone you do undoubtedly care deeply about. Bad because it is a loss, no matter how you look at it.
So really...is it really a good break-up? Perhaps "one of the better" would be more appropriate...
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Welcome to my world....
I have always been the kind of person that thinks. A lot. It drives me nuts, and when things aren't going well, or I have a substantial amount of down time, I am often consumed by those thoughts. Some specific, some random, even some that are most likely complete nonsense...but they're there regardless.
So, I thought maybe blogging would be a good outlet for them. An online journal...kind of nice. A place where there's a chance that someone might read your thoughts, and might not. A world of anonymity where no one really needs to know who I am or where I come from. Sometimes I feel that's the world I live in anyway, so I can feel right at home!
As much as it's nice to think someone might read my posts, and have an opinion or two on them, I really don't even need or want feedback. Of course I realize I'm posting in a public environment so people have the right to comment. But...that's not my reason for doing this. I'm not trying to prove a point, not trying to tell anyone else to think or believe. I just want an outlet so that maybe, just maybe one of these days I can put my mind to rest. Or at least give it a break.
On that note, if you are reading this, welcome to my world. Be warned that my thoughts are not always clear, I'm frequently all over the board and I know this. Some thoughts may be rational and others potentially off the charts irrational. I guess we'll find out. I don't expect anyone to agree with me, or jump on my personal bandwagon. I'm really quite content being me and having my own thoughts an opinions. I don't feel the need for validation, nor do I feel the need to prove myself to someone who might try to challenge me. As I believe everyone else is entitled to their own opionions, I feel that I am as well.
So there you have it. It may not always be "PC", may not be pretty. May not even make sense. But it is the clutter that runs around in my mind and often creates turmoil in my world. Many people don't understand me, sometimes I don't understand myself. And, well, it is what it is. So for now, I will store my thoughts in this lovely little electronic vault. And who knows....maybe in the end I'll actually end up making sense of some of the chaos.
So, I thought maybe blogging would be a good outlet for them. An online journal...kind of nice. A place where there's a chance that someone might read your thoughts, and might not. A world of anonymity where no one really needs to know who I am or where I come from. Sometimes I feel that's the world I live in anyway, so I can feel right at home!
As much as it's nice to think someone might read my posts, and have an opinion or two on them, I really don't even need or want feedback. Of course I realize I'm posting in a public environment so people have the right to comment. But...that's not my reason for doing this. I'm not trying to prove a point, not trying to tell anyone else to think or believe. I just want an outlet so that maybe, just maybe one of these days I can put my mind to rest. Or at least give it a break.
On that note, if you are reading this, welcome to my world. Be warned that my thoughts are not always clear, I'm frequently all over the board and I know this. Some thoughts may be rational and others potentially off the charts irrational. I guess we'll find out. I don't expect anyone to agree with me, or jump on my personal bandwagon. I'm really quite content being me and having my own thoughts an opinions. I don't feel the need for validation, nor do I feel the need to prove myself to someone who might try to challenge me. As I believe everyone else is entitled to their own opionions, I feel that I am as well.
So there you have it. It may not always be "PC", may not be pretty. May not even make sense. But it is the clutter that runs around in my mind and often creates turmoil in my world. Many people don't understand me, sometimes I don't understand myself. And, well, it is what it is. So for now, I will store my thoughts in this lovely little electronic vault. And who knows....maybe in the end I'll actually end up making sense of some of the chaos.
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